broken

It burns.

And Yet I will rejoice in the pain. Pain, for me and for right now, is the realization of growth. I'm terrified of it all.

Tonight was delightful. I came home and lost it. I wonder what it was like to go a day without tears. That burns too.

I want to set a deadline. "You will feel better by Sunday. By May 1st. By 2012" yet I know I shouldn't. I can't. Let my mind rest. Seek faith in God and know that He is holding me and my heart, no matter how broken it all feels.

Faith is burning. And Ive never felt that.

Growth.