A loss

The heart I have makes this job that much more difficult.

My residents have challenges and disabilities. But they do not have chronic conditions & are usually quite healthy.

I have deleted so many thoughts in forming this: one of our residents died today. He did not "pass" or "move on" he died. My heart breaks for his family -no matter how much notice you have, this burns deep inside. My heart breaks for his housemates -expressing death to my sweet friends is something I'll never 'have down'. And my hearts breaks for our organization as a whole -this is a major loss.

Loving the way I do, is why I am so good at my job. Its the way that I can stay calm when I want to scream. Its the way I can love residents who drool or scream out. I love each of them with my heart and with my soul. And why my heart breaks.

My deepest thoughts and prayers for the hurt in our home.